Thursday, 16 October 2008
today, i am feeling awfully sad.
the reason for this is that i know i am going to have an awfully crappy birthday this year. it will be in tokyo. i know, most people would go "oh that's great!" or something like that, but really, it's not. no offence to japanese people, but i just don't like tokyo. it's too metropolitan for me, and i just don't understand anything there. and it's too... too big and lively for my liking. and i REALLY was looking forward to spending my birthdya at home this year. my mum says i need to get out of the house more. but is it so wrong to like being in my house? i mean, we built it luxurious, so why can't i just stay at home and watch TV or something? that's what i've grown used to; i don't like having big celebrations for my birthday. and i probably won't have a cake this year. maybe i can have krispy kremes? and my mum is probably gonna get me some lousy present that i don't want, and probably my dad, too. they just don't know me well enough to get me presents that i actually like, and will use. i'd rather they just give me money, then i can buy something useful for myself. seriously, if i throw a party, can you imagine how many picture frames, stationery (a or e?) and hygiene products like soap and perfume i would get?
i remember my 10th birthday party, people gave me books i read when i was 7. needless to say, i felt rather insulted. it was like "do you think i am that stupid?". but then again, you can't blame them for not knowing my level of intelligence. i am going to get some lousy stuff this year. and i hate when people get me flowers. i mean, flowers are nice from your boyfriend, on valentine's day (i guess). or on a date or something. but.. flowers from like, your second cousin or something? it's kinda.. kinda weird.
oh. my tenth birthday party. people brought wine. thanks a lot. thanks a lot for getting my mum drunk. i was ten. i probably would have appreciated potato chips more.
and don't get me started about "little girl" stereoptypes. imagine someone buying a gift for a little girl. "oh, it's a ten year old girl, let's just buy her some sweet barbie doll themed stuff. or princess themed!". i really was disappointed that i didn't get anything i would really use for that birthday. i was especially disappointed that my mum gave me a little kid PINK schoolbag, that had like winnie the pooh all over it. i saw it before my birthday, in her room. i thought she was gonna give it to my little cousin. so my message to everyone out there is to give people you don't know very well MONEY. instead of some useless gift they will either chuck aside to gather dust, regift or even discard. seriously. don't do that.
"oh dear, her infidelity has just spilt all over the floor! can somebody help her?"
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